Struggle

Rain seeps through the soles of my shoes

Pavements shine with a tired kind of bruise

Shop lights flicker like they might give in

Same as the battle under my skin

Everyone walks like they know where they’re bound

I drift like a ghost with my eyes on the ground

Posters keep shouting that things will improve

But hope feels like something I can’t really prove

Angels in the sky, watched them fly right by

It's a waste of time, when I know I'm going to die

So I queue for the bus, hands numb with the cold

Counting small change like a man growing old

Breath in the air, thin proof I exist

A life that the world nearly managed to miss

Yet something keeps tugging, quiet but strong

A thread saying stay, you’ve lasted this long

Not faith, not courage, not reason why -

Just the stubborn refusal to lie down and die